Well, it has been a while. I am now 24 weeks pregnant with my SON, Liam Barack. My Hubs2Be is now my Hubz; we were married on the beach of the Gulf of Mexico on Galveston Island on November 10, 2012. Yay! To sum up my absence, I was afraid. During my last post I was dealing with a lot of bleeding and spotting. I was terrified that I would miscarry as I did about 8 years ago. I didn't want to jinx it by writing about it. Luckily, my son is healthy and my pregnancy has been wonderful since about 10 weeks.
Family:
Today my aunt passed and it was a wake up call to really appreciate my family. I think this blog will help my son to understand how much I loved and thought about him before he was even born should something ever happen to me. I hate that my son will never get to see my aunt's smile, hear her laugh, or listen to her speak about our history. She and my uncle have been together since they were 15. My prayers go out to him as he has to learn how to live without her for the first time in his life.
Weight:
Yesterday I had a break down about my weight I was about 128lbs pre-pregnancy. In the first trimester I remained in the low 130's. But in the second trimester all hell broke loose! At about 20 weeks I was 143! The most that I have ever weighed. I cried...a lot. This time I weighed in at 151 pounds! I could have passed out when she had to move the second beam on the scale. My doctor says that if I can watch what I eat from now on then I can limit the rest of my weight gain to 16 lbs for the rest of the pregnancy which would put me at 167. I know that I should be focusing on the positive; my son is healthy, my husband is awesome, and we are blessed. But I can't hold back the tears when I think about my weight. I guess I never thought much about my weight in the past because it's never been an issue. I truly applaud over weight women who still feel confident and have healthy body images.
Work:
Work has been great! However, my student teacher's last day was Friday. She helped me out SO much and I know that things will get a little overwhelming without her.
Marriage:
So far, I have been a wife for 3 days now. I have cooked and cleaned everyday so far. Gender roles are very much perpetuated in America and I hate to buy into it but I can't help it. *Shrugs shoulders* Ah Well!
